the blossoming

Another beautiful winter day; the sun is shining, the temperature almost 50 degrees.  Wow, life is good!  And I feel good.  This morning I had the sudden realization that this year will be remarkable, far more so then I had thought.  It will be a year of such growth and expansion of inner knowledge, I really feel almost giddy.  I know my trip to Alaska will be as a window into my soul, and I look forward to the experience with great expectation as well as some tribulation.  I know inside that I will be exposed to parts of me that I have been extremely adept at hiding for much of my life.  I am good at that, very good.  But I need to see it all, to clean house if I am to be the person my Creator had envisioned at the time of my creation.  Oh, the smell of searing flesh!  But not just the surface.  This will extend into the very core of my being.  I know this to be true.  I also know the time of preparation for this adventure will be equally as testing.  Forget the preparation of the bike, or the physical workouts to prepare my body.  No, this will be the preparation of my spirit.  I see things unfolding before me.  I see opportunities presenting themselves for the lessons of the soul.  Oh how I have dreamed of this time, when I will be positioned to really experience the growth of my very being.  When I began my path, the part of my path I am presently walking, I knew there would be much work.  I was told by my teacher at the time that the path would not always be pleasant.  There would be times of hardship; times of loneliness.  And yes, I have experienced these.  And I know there will be more to come.  But this is my path and I accept it.  I welcome it with open arms and an open and willing heart.  And I am joyful.  The worst of my enemies, my self doubt, is falling by the wayside to be replaced by an inner certainty of righteousness.  I can accept wherever my path may lead, because I know it is of the white light.  I feel so blessed to be me.  I feel the blessing of the knowledge of friends, real friends.  The taste is sweet.  I can think of my friends, those wonderful people that have been entering my life, and I am filled with gratitude; for I know these teachers are here for me.  I know there are wonderful lessons to be shared.  And I know there are others, those who have not yet entered my life, those who are waiting in the wings, ready to bless me with their beauty.  These are my gifts from my Creator.  I know the knowledge, the wisdom, will be a cascade of growth.  And I know in the end I will be a humble servant of my Creator.  I do not yet know my role in this dance, but dance I will.  And the beauty will light the night.