the cough

The cough is back. I think it's been hiding in the shadowy areas of my bowels.  Or not.  But it is back.  The cough that doubles me over and feels like a lung or two will flop out onto the floor at my feet.  If I'm out in public, that could be embarrassing!  I think the worst public issue is that people back away, fearing I have the plague or something similarly hideous.  I know it isn't infectious, but how to tell them?  Stand up and say "it's okay folks, I'm just practicing for a part on the TB ward in "As The Worm Turns".  Seriously, this thing has me perplexed.  Every time I believe I have an inkling of an understanding, it proves me wrong.  I think the problem is that it's not just one thing, but multiple things coming together.  Any one of these can set off the cycle that results in my being banned from restaurants.  But, if I'm going to have a problem, at least I have one that isn't life threatening.  It's hard to feel sorry for yourself when there are people around you who see their problems as so much worse.  I think a problem is as small or big as we make it.  Granted, if you're going to die, that could be construed as a biggie.  But really?  In my spiritual practice, I have grown to see death as not an end, but a continuation of the journey.  I can't say what is in store for others, but my guides have shown me the possibilities of my life after leaving this body.  I don't know specifics, but I do know that what awaits me will be beautiful and exciting!  So to me, even "problems" like death are not that big of a deal.  Someone once suggested to ask yourself if this thing you are being so concerned about now will matter in five years.  Amazing!  So few things that used to worry me in the present would have any relevance down the road.  I believe that it is very sad that more folks are not able to take advantage of the help being offered to them by spirit helpers.  Maybe it just isn't the right time on their path.  Or, maybe it's that they refuse help out of fear.  Who knows?  I try to bring this message to people, leaving the decision of accepting it or not to them.  But, to all those willing to listen, I say that things are wonderful.  We have the opportunity of a lifetime.  Literally.  We can dance, or we can hide in the shadows.  So, I embrace my cough.  I see this as an opportunity, a lesson to be learned.  By the way, does anyone know if anyone is looking for actors to be patients on the TB ward?